The impossible...

It was my junior year of college – and I was pretty unhappy. Many of you may know, I’m usually easily pleased and not many things get me down. But for some reason, I wasn’t pleased and satisfied with my life. I almost wanted to start my life all over again from the very beginning. Knowing it was impossible, I prayed my little prayer – huffing and puffing – sharing my thoughts and angers with God. I knew He heard me… I knew He was watching me… So I continued to pray – every night - day after day. This prayer led to months of the same prayer – during which my prayers would become longer, and more detailed, because I would realize more clearly, that this was an impossible prayer. How could God start my life again? I was asking for a time machine – to go back in time.. the impossible.

6 months passed – and it was time to move to Boston. One of my brothers and my dad made a road trip of it with me and helped me make the move. My dad dropped me off, my brother put together some shelves for me and they left. I was left alone, in a new apartment, new city, with no friends, no internet, and no cable. I was alone… and it hit me then and there, that this move was the answer to my “impossible” prayer. I was starting all over again. He answered an impossible prayer.. God answered my prayers in a way I would NEVER have expected.

At In2, we are discussing and learning about prayer and every aspect of it. It took me 22 years to finally fully believe in the power of prayer and the power of God – and that God does indeed answer our prayers. Why then is it so hard to let go of ourselves, and our selfish hearts and why do we forget to pray? Why do we not set aside the time to pray when we know God will answer all of our prayers?

It’s something I struggle with everyday.

Debora Suk - Mustard Seed Ministry Leader, Small Group Leader, Praise Team